So I’ve been given an option for book club to make it better. I am considering taking it and running in hopes that 1. more people show up and participate, 2. book club doesn’t have to dissolve due to lack of participation and my frustration with slackers, 3. it would take some pressure off of me.
What people don’t get is that when I do something, I will literally stress myself out until that event is over. I sometimes make myself sick I stress so much. Then when people don’t bother to show up because they suck and don’t think about anyone but themselves, I stress more because I feel like I did something wrong. It’s frustrating. It’s so damn frustrating. But MORE than that, it’s rude. At some point, if you’re a part of a group it should come into your head to actually participate in said group. Why join a group if you don’t want to do anything? Why join if you’re not willing to participate? If there’s something that you think could make it better, why stay quiet? Maybe your idea is the key to this whole group becoming spectacular. Maybe we’re just waiting for you to actually open your mouth and let that awesome come out.
But people don’t get that here. For some reason, being considerate is just not something people are anymore. Why? When did it become okay to show up half an hour late to a meeting you scheduled with me? or not show up at all when you RSVP’d? I mean come on, if you don’t want to do something, then say so. Don’t pussy-foot around it. You won’t hurt my feelings if you’re honest. Just say so. I have other things to do. I have a family and other responsibilities. I have a life. Sometimes I don’t understand people. Were you not raised to respect people? I was. If I know I can’t or don’t want to do something, I say, No. If something happens, I try to let that person know asap so they aren’t sitting there going, “where is she?”. It’s rude. So rude. And I’m so tired of it.
Try. That’s all I ask. Try to do something outside your comfort zone. Just once. Read a book you wouldn’t normally read. Go to a gathering or party you probably wouldn’t go to. Talk to a person who wouldn’t normally talk to. Just. Try. It’s like the people here who constantly complain about not knowing people or having friends. How is that my fault? or my problem? You stay at home and don’t try to meet people. There is a TON of stuff to do in this area- and you sit at home on your butt all day/night and complain on a Facebook forum to hundreds of others people. Stop being a little bitch and do something about for yourself. Make your own opportunities.
I just needed to get that out there. And off my chest. I feel better.
Hopefully I can get book club running better and maybe participation will grow. I won’t hold my breathe, but maybe I’ll cross my fingers.