Growing up in privileged, Manhattan social circles, Caggie’s life should be perfect, and it almost was until the day that her younger sister drowned when Caggie was supposed to be watching her. Stricken by grief, Caggie pulls away from her friends and family, only to have everyone misinterpret a crucial moment when she supposedly saves a fellow classmate from suicide. Now she’s famous for something she didn’t do and everyone lauds her as a hero. But inside she still blames herself for the death of her sister and continues to pull away from everything in her life, best friend and perfect boyfriend included. Then Caggie meets Astor, the new boy at school, about whom rumours are swirling and known facts are few. In Astor she finds someone who just might understand her pain, because he has an inner pain of his own. But the more Caggie pulls away from her former life to be with Astor, the more she realises that his pain might be darker, and deeper, than anything she’s ever felt. His pain might be enough to end his life…and Caggie’s as well.
I liked this book okay. Caggie is in understandable pain and sorrow after losing her kid sister. The thing is, she’s very guarded to the reader. not only was there a wall around her to her family and friends, but also to the reader. In order to like a character and love a book, recommend a book- the main character has to be relatable and open. Caggie is not. When she meets Astor, you just know something’s not quite right with him. And Caggie’s best friend and brother even tell her he’s not right in the head. But she doesn’t listen. I think that’s how it goes though, people tell you something you know in your heart is right, but you don’t listen cause you just know you’re right.
It all comes to a head and Caggie FINALLY realizes, ‘hey, Astor is bat shit crazy’ at the lake house when he sets the house on fire. Yea. It took until that point for her to get it.
It’s a quick read if you have a couple hours. I really like YA and this is a book I would recommend for those who are dealing with grief.
3 out of 5 stars.